Selfie #1

My first official selfie for the blog and typically I am proper under the weather. I am also chained to my desk after a ten hour shift which I started late and now have many hours to go to finish something I should have done days ago but as usual I have left it til the last minute. Preparations are in full swing for the cabaret on Thursday - feeling rather apprehensive as there are loads of people involved and not loads of people coming but it will all come out in the wash I'm sure. I have been struggling a bit for a few weeks and getting a cold and a cough has just brought me down more and I need to get back into my running as when I stop I just feel worse and worse. There is so much shit going on in the world too that it is very difficult to feel jolly.

Anyway re selfie - as you can see I have adopted the expression that hides the wrinkles, I have cut half of my face out and have focussed instead on the gorgeous sleeping cat. I have a long way to go. But for now it's upwards of four hours scripting.......

I am not a selfie taker. To be fair I don't like my photo being taken by anyone so I'm hardly going to take endless photos of myself. However, the phenomenon of the selfie is not going away and everyone seems to be at it. I started to think that maybe I ought to give it a go. I have recently tried all sorts of things, perhaps it's a midlife crisis. I find myself thinking longer and harder about what the point of me is and these hobbies of discovery at the very least unveil things about myself I wasn't aware of or give me an opportunity to surprise myself (half marathon...)

I seem, recently, to think longer and harder each day about who I am, why I do what I do and why I want what I want. On the one hand I recognise how lucky I am living where I live in the world, being reasonably healthy and knowing some amazing people. I try to do as much fun stuff as I can, to give as much back as I can and to say 'yes' probably too much! On the other hand, I seem to spend most of my time feeling a bit lost, a bit confused. Confused as to how I got to where I am in my life and where the blazes I am going. I don't know why I can't just crack on with it all especially with such awful things going on in the world. Maybe that plays a part who knows.

Will taking selfies help? No. Will I get anything out of it? Possibly. I anyone else interested.....

The plan is to take a selfie everyday in December 2015 however tired or haggard I look and to post it with a little explanation of what I am up to. The great thing is that as I have no memory at all it will also help me to look back at what I did at the end of 2015. 

Here is one to start me off. Post 7k run with smudged mascara in need of a shower but with a few hours of overtime ahead of me

I am not sure if I want anyone to read this, I am not really sure who it is for, but if anyone does then perhaps they could share with me their selfies too?

Niki x